I am not sure if I am seeking advice, sympathy, and apathy or just wanting to vent.
So take this post, as you will…
As some of you know I have struggled with school my whole life. I was sent to many different private schools in elementary. Once I reached 6th grade 9middle school) I was sent for evaluation. The diagnosis was Dyslexia. I attended school there but was put in the remedial classes. As a 6th grader carrying around 3rd and 4th grade math and English books I was a tad affected. The making fun stopped as I began hitting those that mocked me. However, the lasting affects stuck with me my whole life. I recall one teacher suggesting I avoid considering college and focus more on trying to graduate HS and get a job. I was taken out of those classes in 11th grade and my senior year received a 3.7 gpa. I went to a small private college and did ok. I quit after 2 years because I hated school. I got married and started my professional career. Well that’s not exactly accurate I struggled with jobs my whole life looking for something I would enjoy yet also paid the bills. I finely ended up working with computers. Ultimately I struggle with testing. So now that I am older and been away from school for 8 years I continue to be haunted by the “what could have been” thoughts and feelings. The question is to go back or not to go back…I am 27 married with a wife and 2 kids under 3. My weakness has always been testing. I am looking into Distance learning from www.liberty.edu they offer entire undergrad degrees online. You can take the tests via a proctor (ie..pastor, librarian or teacher.) I have any of those available. My wife and closets friends seem to be urging me to do this with confidence. I however, am scared …if I try and fail that means I couldn’t do it. If I pass it will be a tremendous achievement for me. Of course it’s also a long-term commitment. It will take me 4 years with the credits I have that will transfer.
Thoughts?
This is not to boost my career I am a Network Security Admin for a bank with 8 years experience in IT so while it may bring more income that is not my motive.
So take this post, as you will…
As some of you know I have struggled with school my whole life. I was sent to many different private schools in elementary. Once I reached 6th grade 9middle school) I was sent for evaluation. The diagnosis was Dyslexia. I attended school there but was put in the remedial classes. As a 6th grader carrying around 3rd and 4th grade math and English books I was a tad affected. The making fun stopped as I began hitting those that mocked me. However, the lasting affects stuck with me my whole life. I recall one teacher suggesting I avoid considering college and focus more on trying to graduate HS and get a job. I was taken out of those classes in 11th grade and my senior year received a 3.7 gpa. I went to a small private college and did ok. I quit after 2 years because I hated school. I got married and started my professional career. Well that’s not exactly accurate I struggled with jobs my whole life looking for something I would enjoy yet also paid the bills. I finely ended up working with computers. Ultimately I struggle with testing. So now that I am older and been away from school for 8 years I continue to be haunted by the “what could have been” thoughts and feelings. The question is to go back or not to go back…I am 27 married with a wife and 2 kids under 3. My weakness has always been testing. I am looking into Distance learning from www.liberty.edu they offer entire undergrad degrees online. You can take the tests via a proctor (ie..pastor, librarian or teacher.) I have any of those available. My wife and closets friends seem to be urging me to do this with confidence. I however, am scared …if I try and fail that means I couldn’t do it. If I pass it will be a tremendous achievement for me. Of course it’s also a long-term commitment. It will take me 4 years with the credits I have that will transfer.
Thoughts?
This is not to boost my career I am a Network Security Admin for a bank with 8 years experience in IT so while it may bring more income that is not my motive.